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writes:I never thought that I'll be this depressed. Where to begin.I'm 29, which is too old to be single in my country. My family constantly putting pressure on me, I know they (my dad and sister) mean well, but sometimes I just felt that my dad is very embarrassed by me every time someone asks if I'm still single. I have a degree, and I think I'm quite smart. But I don't like my job, I don't like what I studied in university and don't know which career path to choose despite I'm 29. Most of the people my age are having a high rank job with very well paid.My parents divorce while I was young. Sister and I lived with mum. She's very emotionally abusive. She always told me that I don't worth anyone's love, and will end up being abandoned like her. But it was her who filed the divorce because she's very into gambling, and she needed the divorce money to pay back her debt because my dad was too fed up. She blamed everything to me and my sister. She said if we're boys, or better behaved, our father won't argue with her so much. And she won't be so lonely and got addicted to gambling. Anyway, after some years, she cheated me and ran away with all the trust fund my father gave me and my sister. My previous serious relationship ended because ex left me for another girl. I guess I didn't love him that much, but I hope that somehow the relationship can lead to marriage. I pushed him for it towards the end and fight a lot. He couldn't take it and left for another girl.I was quite upset for a while, but still managed to pick myself up. Get a makeover, got some new hobbies, did some travelling. Because I want to attract some one, and be married happily one day. Just to show my mum that I'm different from her.It's until my recent break up that makes me realize, I have really serious problem within. I'm constantly unhappy. I don't enjoy everything I do. None of the activities interests me. I feel rubbish, useless, worthless. I hated everyone.I think that I'm not good enough for anyone even though I act very proud. At the age of 29, where most of my friends are married or in happy relationship, I'm still single, career less, future less. I have dreams which I'm not able to reach. He was the only good thing that happened to me for such a long time, yet I screwed up by being emotionally dependent. I want to change, but don't know how. I want to see a shrink, but don't have the money. Can anyone with such experience, or know someone in similar situation give me any advice?
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reader, So_Very_Confused  +, writes (20 September 2012):
 I am so sorry you are struggling so much.
I strongly suggest that you figure out a way to see a counselor... not a psychiatrist... all they do is prescribe meds... you need a social worker, psychologist or a psychotherapist to help you work through these issues.
Here in the states there is help from some of the organizations such as Associated Charities..
at my office there is an employee assistance program
and my insurance covers a lot of the expense..
do you have any of those options...
I know when you are that depressed it's paralyzing... totally...
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reader, anonymous, writes (20 September 2012): I think this constant pressure on you that your single and the rest are dating or married is bothering you due to which you become so unhappy..
A friend of mine is single,30 and is still exploring her options..age is just a number,its up to you how you potray urself..
I know of so many people who after graduation pursued something else and quit what they have been studying to study something they found way interesting..this is life,you learn,you make mistakes..your only 29 yet you sound like 50 year old to me..your soo young,cheer up,go clubbing,hang out with friends..you u have soo much time in hand..
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