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writes:I have always had this tiny crush on this boy 2 years ahead of me. This has been for at least 4 or 5 years - he was my friend's brother's friend. It never really meant anything to me, I just always admired him. As we all got older, our social circles crossed paths more and more. Plus he was friends with one of my best friends. So we knew each other, we just never really got to know each other. I am really shy and awkward and always was so afraid of him.But the last week of my winter break, my friend and her brother let a ton of us stay over and hang out all day and sleep over because of the snowstorm. So.. we ended up getting to know each other a lot better and we talked a lot and hung out on the couch for an entire day. Then his band played that Friday and he was pretty excited to see me and we hung out outside smoking and talking and what not. After that we ended up hanging out that night around 3am. He texted me that he forgot to give me a cd in his car that he meant to give me so that I was forced to hang out with him the next night. And so saturday came, and I sort of expected to not hang out with him at normal hours of the night, because well.. I half knew where it was going. I went over there at 3am again and we watched a movie. We ended up cuddling on the couch/making out and I didnt leave until about 6.. I am just the most awkward person ever and really thought I acted like an idiot but after he sent me a message about stuff we had been talking about. I have never ever opened up to someone like that. Its not that I usually talk about shallow subjects, but things that most people around me dont necessarily agree with me on (like religion, war, jobs, money, etc.) we completely knew what we meant. Without even having to elaborate. I usually talk to myself about those things.. but this time I had another human to discuss it with. It was lovely. I have a ton of anxiety and refuse to be close to anyone, but he surprisingly broke through quite easily. He is really personable. Heres the thing - this happened the night before I left for school. Across the country. I mean, essentially, we just met each other in many respects so I wouldnt ask for anything, obviously. But i reallllllly really like him, and Im fairly certain he was pretty into me. He also told me how trapped he felt recently and I think I may have just been an outlet. He told me he wanted to live vicariously through me, as Im in a city he would die to be in. I dont know, I just need perspective and Ive literally never been with a guy where we both truly liked each other more than just hook up status. So I dont know. Would it be strange to expect it to just start up in the summer where it left off?
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reader, aunt honesty  +, writes (18 January 2011):
 Well yes its not just going to start up again in the summer as you will both have changed as people within those months. However i would suggest that you both keep in contact. Keep some level of commnication between the two of you until the summer and then it shouldnt be so hard to reconnect with each other. So make sure that you both keep in contact through either the phone or via internet. Goodluck.
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