This is my life. is there something wrong with me?

A male age 30-35, anonymous writes:

aye where do i start? ok my current cituation is shit. im in love, I feel like a hopeless puppy, I've screwed up many relationships. k so when I was young my family was extremely poor. I barely had lunch money. I never had anything new. but I have a good heart and I've been told so too many times. my sister is an ungratefull bitch (excuse my language but im desperate). I've never had a problem wit girls. I couldve had any and have had many cituations present themselves but I turned them down because it would have been either wrong of me or immoral. im smart and I know it but I've never cared for school. hey sorry about the novel but bare with me. when I turned 15 I was walking my sister home from school and a boy began harassing her and grabbing her. I beat him bad. I was tried and plead guilty. I was sentenced to house arrest and intence probation as well as anger management. my entire life was pretty much taken away from me. I've always valued myself as an honorable man and that cituation sent me into a depression. while I was in that cituation I met a girl. she was perfect. always made me smile wich during that was a big deal. we always hung out during school and began a verry serious relationship. we loved each other. a month before I turned 18 and was free. she died in a car accident. I lost all grip on reality and sanity. a month after I turned 18 my sister lost her mind and falsely accused my innocent loving father of beating her. he was taken and locked up. my mother who was in the hospital at the time inches away from her death bed got nothing but grief from my sister. I was assigned to take care of my sister so I dropped out of school. I did so made sure she went to school, did her chores and such. during this time I was working at a petsmart I met a girl there and fell in love. we started to date. I loved her. she soon left the country and left me. she started to ignore me when i would try to call her or text her. I was lost yet again. then when my mother got out she started working again. I then in a desperation attempt tried to sign up with the marines, I was turned down due to my earlier offence. I didn't want anything to do with my sister and I was trying to get out of that house. I made sure my mother had everything before moving out. I didn't really get out on my own. I rented off my grandparents and gave half of every pay check to my mother. I quit my job due to the fact that everything there reminded me of my ex. I got a better one at lowes, a home improvement store. I then got my ged and pursued my dream of the military. now this is where im at. I met another girl. we worked together. I took her out to lunch every day. I met her child and fell in love with the both of them. her child is 4 and she is 25 six years older then me. jenn is her name. we went out almost every night. I would help her in times of need wether it be a shoulder to cry on financial help or basic household construction. we never dated but considered each other as a friend. I did not want to be with her out of fear of being hurt or her leaving me. one day her daughter called me daddy. that scared me yet made me feel like a father in a sense. this girl has been thru many abusive relationships and has been physically and emotionally abused by men. now all I want to do is protect her and her child. Im in love with this woman and want to grow old with this woman. yet I don't know how she feels. we've been friends for a year now and I want to show her that she can trust me. she openly told me she has feelings for me but I know she doesn't want to get hurt again. that's my life is there something wrong with me? if not then where do I go from here? im ready to give up my dream for this woman and be with her but will she take me? help!

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