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writes:Hi guys. This may be a long post, so please bear with me. I’m 25 and ever since I can remember- I’ve had an attraction to men. Growing up, I thought it was a phase that would eventually pass- unfortunately it didn’t. Long story short- I have since accepted the fact that I am a guy who is attracted to other men- but I have decided not to act out on my attraction because of reasons that are too many to mention. Anyhow, about 6 years back, during my first year of university, I met this guy (jay) that I truly fell in love with. I knew that I’ve never felt this way about anyone ever before. We used to meet up for study sessions and I swear the only studying I did was him. My attraction towards him was not sexual at all- it was a really deep emotional kind of attraction. Some of the best moments I can recall are when we spent a few ‘all nighters’ studying at our university- we just ended up taking the night away. He was smart, kind, and drop dead handsome. I just could not work up the courage to tell him- It got so bad that I had trouble focusing on my classes, I was an emotional mess. And then enter really trashy girl (Sal)- she told me that she liked him and wanted me to hook her up with him since I was Jay’s close friend. So one day, I was talking to him about one of the girls (Sal) while she was sitting right next to me listening to music- and naturally, I said a few ‘negative’ things about Sal and told Jay to stay away from her and surprisingly he agreed with me- the only thing was that Sal was listening to our conversation the entire time (pretending to listen music). Things got really ugly- I didn’t care about my friendship with Sal- but Jay ditched me and made an effort to patch things up with Sal even though he didn’t even do anything wrong!. I just couldn’t take it anymore, I deleted my facebook account, blocked everybody on msn, and just lost complete contact with everybody…including him. I told myself he wasn’t worth it and got over him---or so I think. Also, I should mention there were the expensive gifts that I gave to him- and he never gave back anything in return.So here’s my question, why do I still get so emotional when I think about him? Its been 6 years since..and I honestly think I haven’t been able to get over him. What do you guys think? Thanks all.
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reader, anonymous, writes (10 February 2011): i really feel for you.theres some1 out there that will be so glad to have all that love of yours.its normal to get upset when you think back,but look forward.think of how great it can be when your getting all that love and attention in return! youll be on cloud nine! good luck, dont look back, look forward youve got so much to offer!
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