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male
age
26-29,
anonymous
writes: I don't know what to do anymore. I pretty much gave up on my parents years ago, I have no freedom, no nothing. I've been sulking in my depression for years now and I feel like it's gonna be like that for the rest of my life. Yes of course my parents aren't the only reason why my life sucks so much but they are a big part of it and could be the causes of all the other things wrong with me. I have my own personal problems. I'm 17 and start senior year in the fall, and I thought I could at least still be connected with them when I'm gone and done with college. But that's not an option and I cannot associate myself with people like them even if they're my parents. The thing is I'm gay, but they don't know it even though it's painstakingly obvious. But they're really conservative, old fashioned, religious, homophobic people. We've had major arguments about homosexuality and human rights without them knowing that I'm gay myself. They think that homosexuality is a choice and a disease. And that other gays recruit and train people to be gay. And my dad even said himself if he had the money and power he would kill of them. Such Christians right? Coming out to them and the majority of the people in my family is not an option and I don't really want any of them in my life. The worst part is they genuinely think that the things they're saying are good. I'm just tired of feeling depressed, and trapped in this house. I've already been deprived of a child hood, and my teen years are almost gone with nothing to show for them. And I'm afraid what I've dealt through now will affect my adult life. And it will be the same or worse. I don't want my life to end before it starts; in a dull day to day job that I hate and never finding love. I just don't know what to do or think anymore.
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reader, [?]BitterSweetFinale;[?] +, writes (13 September 2012):
![[?]BitterSweetFinale;[?] agony aunt](/avatars/7bb1e9ea-6c2f-43b8-a4f7-0635b7eff08c.png) Listen.. I know it's hard now but there will always be an entrance after every exit. Just don't choose a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Some people don't accept it but honestly.. Everyone judges whether we realize it or not. But the ones who judge based off of race or homosexuality aren't worth it. I understand they're your family, maybe you should at least have the courage to talk with them.. Please we can't change the things that we leave un-faced, don't feel depressed honey. You're going to go far, you aren't a slacker so don't keep yourself down and find the light at the end of the tunnel. Everyone will find love, and who cares how you view it, love is love regardless. Always be happy with the choices you make but don't hide the way you feel ever, bottling up your emotions and hiding things all the time constantly will only make you feel worse. Isolating? No, don't do that. I know it's easier said than done right? You must at least hear me out, you are not a bad person, you are a beautiful person like anyone else, we're all beautiful people and we are all created for a purpose and you are here for a reason so stay and you will see it gets better in the end. You're young, don't do this to yourself anymore. Let me know if you ever want to talk sorry if I leave anything out but look in the mirror and tell yourself everyday how amazing you are. No one ever deserves to be made to feel lousy, we are all great in our own ways, if everyone was the same this world would be so boring. Embrace yourself and stay golden. Never change for anyone, I don't care who they are!
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