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writes:My husband and I have been married for 5 years this summer, but together for 7 and we have 3 and one on the way. He wont quit looking at the porn and he has even saved pics of these women on his side and added them as an avatar on a game he plays. I have told him how i feel and he has told me what he does is none of my business and does not care how about how i feel. Awhile back I almost tried to commit suicide by overdose it did not work because I could not do it and hurt my children. I think about dying a lot. I feel horrible. I don't feel sexy or anything. Of lately the only sex he has been wanting from me is a blow job. I have decided I can not give him anything else since that is all he wants anyways. Plus, I don't want him to see me naked anyways. I don't even want to be close to him. I am not really out there in fat ways. I do feel fat though. I hate my body. Then today I found out he was searching for an ex on the internet and he has done this before years ago. I know he still has feelings for her. I cannot take this anymore, but I cannot leave. What do I do to help myself, because no matter how I dress or what I do sexually I cannot receive his attention. All he does is stay on the computer. He even talks to the women on the internet. I just don't understand why he would want to hurt me so much. He told me before he would quit, but only if I would quit looking and buy some toys and lingerie. I did all of that and he still would not quit. I gave of everything to be with him. Yet he cannot even give up this. I feel as though if I don't get help in the next couple of years I will parish. I don't have money to get couseling and my husband would not go anyways.Does anyone have any advice on how I can make it through the day? get over this?
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reader, Susan Strict  +, writes (28 April 2008):
 I think the difficulty is more his attitude to you than the fact he's looking at porn.
Computer sites are addictive - and yes, it's not like porn but since I found the DearCupid site and started writing replies a few weeks ago, my partner has been complaining that I'm not paying any attention to him in the evenings. I'm aware of it. I'm dealing with it, but yes, the "interaction" of the Internet is definitely addictive.
From what you say, I really don't think it's just the porn that's the problem with your husband. You say he has added a porn pic as an avatar to a game he plays - so he's playing games, not just looking at porn. It's not an addiction to porn; it's more than that.
Let's start with the porn. Try to work out what sort of porn he's looking at, and then you might have a better idea of why. It's rarely just that it's naked women or that it's naked women doing sexual things. It's something else that he gets from that and not at the moment from you. Is it women with a particular attitude? Particular clothes? Doing particular things? You need to know, because whatever is lacking that makes him look at this may be something you can give him and enjoy giving him.
Whatever else it may be, it's not you, not your looks, not your body and not anything you've done or not done. It's certainly not his ex. That's a symptom, not a cause. He's not going to tell you what it is, because in all probability he doesn't know himself. You have to work it out yourself, and you will - if you want to and if you have the energy and strength to do it. It's all very unfair, of course, because he has caused the problem not you. It's just that he is not going to break these habits, and no one except you is going to make him do it. If the relationship was ever worth having, then now is the time to fight for it, and there WILL be an answer, I promise you. You just have to find it.
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reader, Emilysanswers + ♥, writes (28 April 2008):
This guy tells you openly that he does not care how you feel.
So you can either stay with him and be a doormat, or you can leave. There is no way to magically make him a caring wonderful guy.
Go to your doctor and get help about your feelings though. You should not be feeling fat or suicidal.
Get help and get a life without this idiot.
Good Luck!! xx
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