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writes:Ok, so i guess even the helper sometimes needs some help. Anyway, a while ago i posted on here with a question about how far i should go with my boyfriend and stuff. Well all of that is going fine and we are really happy in that area.Recently though i have been rather depressed. A lot of bad things have been happening in my life and i've gone back to blocking people out and hiding away from my problems.6 months ago today my best friend was killed after being hit by a car. I have still yet to get over this but with the support i am getting from my boyfriend i am slowing getting used to her being gone. Anyway, last month (the 26th of March) another close friend was murdered after she went out clubbing with other friends who left her at the club. I feel very guilty for this as she text me asking if i would go out with her before she left. I sent a reply but later found out i had addressed it to the wrong person. After trying constantly the next day to get in touch with her to appologise her Mum rang me and said that she had been murdered and there was an investigation. So now i feel as tough i have two deaths on my shoulders which in a way were both my fault.As well as all of this my Great Uncle (90 this month) is now ill and there's nothing Doctor's can do for him. he keeps talking about how he wont last through the night and it is really upsetting me but i cant say anything. Also my Dad was told on Friday that he has cancer so i now have the worry that i am also losing my Dad. Finally to top all of this off i was on my way the the supermarket which is at the end of my road and i was almost raped, thankfully i was able to get away but i did not get a look at him to teel police.I have not told my parents any of this and i am having trouble telling my friends as well. Anyway all of this is leading to fights between me and my boyfriend. I constantly get the feeling that he doesn't care. wen he phone's or see's me he doesn't ever ask if i'm ok or what's wrong and i know that he is aware that things are wrong because i am constantly crying. I would leave him because deep down i love him to much and i know he does care, but the arguements between us are also adding to my already low mood. So my question is does anyone have anyway that i could make myself even a little bit happier and get my boyfriend more caring towards me? It would also be helpful if anyone can give me some advice on how to talk to people about this sort of stuff because i find it hard confronting anyone with it and i wont see a professional.Many thanks
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reader, geogurl +, writes (16 April 2007):
geogurl is verified as being by the original poster of the question I have just re-read through this and have seen my typo errors the major one being that i WOULDN'T break up with my boyfriend. Sorry just thought i'd clear that up.
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