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writes:Well.. Let me start from 5th grade.. I had this major crush on this guy going into 7th grade. He wasn't the most popular, and he wasn't the cutest, but to me he was so much more. He had the long dark hair, the big bright green eyes, the soft skin, the skate boarding punk that went by the name of Al ;]. So 'Al' and I saw each other quiet a bit, and talked often, and even hung out when I'd go to my aunts, beacause his cousin lived next door to her and we'd play basketball. All my friends told me to ask him out hah, but of course I did not.. But before I was getting up my nerve to hint to him about it, he moved schools. He didn't move far, but far enough where we never got to talk anymore. Now 4 years later he heard me and my boyfriend broke up, so he started talking to me again. He told me he liked my style, how I don't fit just one mold, I'm my own person. We talked alot and really hit it off, eventually one day he told me he liked me.. It was like a dream come true, as dumb as that sounds haha. He started calling on a regulat basis after that, and singing and playing his guitar for me. Soon after we started hanging out a mutual friends house, and shared our first kiss while watching a disney movie. Ofcourse then we started doing our own thing, hanging out with out a group of friends with us.. be we never dated. We hung out every weekend for a few months, and then he moved again.. This time further. I was still in school, he was graduated, and had a job.. It got to where we couldn't talk as much, and our spending time became less and less often. He still came to see me, and I still drove to see him. Soon however, we just started drifting away, not that the flame wasn't still there.. It was, we was just both very much busy with other things. He's back in town now, but when I txt him he's usually really short with me, or is at work.. He's always very busy, working two jobs, and fixing to go to college. He doesn't think he's good enough for me, but I know he is. He sells hiself short, but he's so much better than that, I know he has amazing potential. I wish I would have told him sooner, how much he means to me.. I think that would've changed things. I think he felt like I wasn't really into it, so he needed to let go and let me find something better. But that wasn't the case whatsoever, I would do anything to show him what trueloves really like. I wish I hadn't let him go so easily.What should I do?
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reader, anonymous, writes (8 July 2008): Is he still alive?! Yes. Is he thousands of miles away?! No. Can he still hear?! Yes. Is he violent?! No. Does he hate you?! No. Does he reject you?! No. Is he even with someone else!? No.
There is nothing, NOTHING, stopping you except time. You are telling us exactly what you should be telling him. You can still tell him. How bad would it be if you died without telling him. With all the 'what ifs'.
You need to tell him how you feel as soon as you can. Yeah him saying that was like a dream come true. What if something actually happened?! Yeah time is a issue but its not like you never see each other.
You haven't let him go at all. As you said, the flame is still there. The only thing that would die it out now is if you don't tell him as soon as you can. If you can't get hold him, write him a letter. Writing things down usually allows you to say the right things. The only thing is he won't be able to hear the tone of how you say it.
In all seriousness, just say it.
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