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writes:I can't see objectively outside of my situation and need advice. I am in grad school and I was with someone I thought was my best friend. this is NOT my typical lifestyle, but I had a couple sips of a beer and I took a puff of pot, and immediately after that I realized something was wrong with the pot and I started having a terrible trip-I thought I was dead. for multiple days. I was screaming for 911 over and over and over again at one point and she covered my mouth and told me how we would get in trouble. She threw me in a cab and I immediately started screaming while in the taxi and ultimately went to the hospital, where they thought another drug (like special K or PCP) was laced in.In retrospect I see I was okay and that almost everything was psychological but the effects (of my thinking I was dead) lasted A WEEK and had panic attacks associated with the whole event. I had muscle spasms that I had until that point associated with Parkinsons. I'm not being dramatic when I say the entire experience was the worst, most terrifying thing I have ever experienced and never plan on doing any drug again. I understand that I assumed the risk when I took the drug that it could have been tainted or I would have a bad reaction, but I still don't know what 'category' to put my 'friend' in. I have spoken to her a little since the event, obviously she felt bad and said sorry about what had happened, but she still expected me to be 'normal' after. I ultimately took a week off of school, went home to my family to sort myself out as I was having severe nightmares and was generally unfit to be seen by the public. I tried to give her a picture of what was going on but she was sort of dismissive like, but the symptoms are dissipating, right? Meanwhile I wasn't sure if my mental state was ever going to return to what it was. Once I returned to class, she hasn't said a word to me (or I to her, although I think she owes me more of a talk..).she had invited me to a party for tomorrow, and I just feel like I don't know where I SHOULD stand with her. Part of me wants to call and say hey i'm not coming unless i feel comfortable with you, so let's talk through it so we can get to that point, but the other part of me is like, why should I, because she didn't really treat me well during this entire event, she didn't reach out and apologize directly to me, she did to my boyfriend, and i guess that's the other thing, my boyfriend called her to sort of back off or not talk about this with me because at the time I was still essentially hysterical and it would trigger me again, so that could be why she's so distant.as I mention I do not plan on doing any kind substance besides soda and chips with her again, so this scenario will never occur in the future of our knowing each other, but I don't know where I should stand with her on a friendship level even. At the time I felt like it wasn't really her fault she got a bad batch or whatever, but as more time went on and less sympathy I got for the pure terror I suffered, the more angry I've become. I'd most appreciate answers for those who have had similar bad reactions to drugs than those who have stayed away from them. Thank you.
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 March 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThere were hallucinations, and had a pretty tenuous grasp on reality for multiple DAYS (which hadn't ever happened with me with pot), but felt uncomfortable getting into in my post. I ultimately did not go to the party (I forgot to mention it wasn't just some party for the party's sake that would have been easier to not go to, it was a personal celebration of something big that had happened in her life). I emailed her afterward apologizing for not being there and said I felt like we needed closure and discuss what had happened if we were to move on. No response. I'm going with Chalice on this one. Thank you for your posts.
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reader, anonymous, writes (14 March 2012): There is no way I would consider her a Friend. She has shown no empathy let alone true remorse or forgiveness.
No parties with her. Until she can clue in and get some guilt and remorse for what she played a part in- I say keep her at a distance.
Also tell your BF your intentions and have his support to give her the cold shoulder until things get resolved.
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reader, CindyCares  +, writes (14 March 2012):
 The problem may be that it was a good batch ,in fact- too good. Purer, with an higher THC content than you are used to, and it hit you faster and harder.
I suppose it's quite possible too to lace MJ with PCP, but 1 ) the effects would be different, more hallucinogenic, like seeing bright lights, hearing loud noises 2 ) I wonder what would be the point, commercially speaking, if you want to bulk up a batch there are dozen of things less expensive than PCP.
What potheads don't know, don't remember or don't want to admit is that , yes, it's totally possible getting severe panic attacks , and muscle spasms, from smoking pot, and not even as the result of a life long habit, just randomly, as an one off. It's a less predictable drug than one would think.
It happened to at least 3 people I know, and none of them is or ever was an addict, just mild recreational users like yourself.
In view of this , I don't think you can blame your friend for what happened, she did not know that the drugs were tainted, and in fact , quite possibly , they weren't tainted at all. When you dabble with drugs, you know there's always a margin of risk involved, it's implied and accepted when you take that puff .
As for your friend having shown little support and empathy after the incident, I'd give her the benefit of doubt,- maybe she just honestly did not realize how scary and teerrible it felt for you, and / or she took your bf's advice and let you time to cool down and recover.
I wouldn't make a big drama out of this , or a permanent break with her. Just , for the future, you may want to stick strictly to those chips and sodas ....
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reader, Honeygirl  +, writes (14 March 2012):
 Okay, so this friend also too a couple of puffs of the same pot that sent you on a monumental trip?? And how did they affect her, probably she is used to whatever was mixed into the pot.
Learn a vauable lesson from this, not everyone has your best interests at heart. You could have DIED!!
Now having said that, why on earth would you want to associate with someone like that?? Is she trying to get you hooked on drugs???
Something is not right and by going to a party with her is a sure-fired way of getting yourself into another bad situation.
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