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writes: I know it's not a love question, BUT...I'm a girl who used to suffer from anorexia and bulimia in high school. Now I pretty much just fantasize about being a stick again, ooh and ahh over thinspo, and feel incredible anxiety after eating ANYTHING (so the hotfudge sundae I just gave into is tossing anxiously in my stomach)...I have let my selfcontrol go, so it will be hard to lose weight again, and my oral contraceptives make it unsafe and risky to induce vomiting (which I hate anyway)...I feel like I'm being crushed under this weight, under this awful tub of lard or something. I feel like my weight is too much, like it's not even about control over my own self anymore, it's just the number, it's always there! If it goes up, I'm unhappy, if it goes down, I'm not happy enough, and if it plateaus, I'm angry with myself for not trying harder. The number drives me crazy, and even if I don't step on the scale (hard to resist), I imagine it going up with ever sip of juice or bite of food.I can't resist food any longer...I'm always told I'm skinny, and my boyfriend said 'I like big women anyway. Look at me, I'm a big guy...you're almost too thin for my tastes, but do you really think I even care?' It made me feel better for a minute, but after a while I was right back to my old worrying. I feel trapped! Any advice on how I can cool my jets?
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reader, bfly36  +, writes (25 April 2008):
 I think ur weight is good for ur height, im no doctor, im 5 feet tall and i weigh 113.
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reader, anonymous, writes (25 April 2008): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI am not taking metamucil to go to the bathroom, I am taking it because it can eliminate some of the fat, before it gets absorbed.
I am about 5'5 and 120lbs. I used to be 5'2 and 103lbs two years ago.
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reader, anonymous, writes (24 April 2008): A girl from my school went terribly thin, I never knew she were seriously ill until she'd gone into hospital last year because of her deterioration from not eating enough. She's lost even more weight whilst being there, and sadly there isn't much hope for her!
Don't become trapped into anorexia, there's nothing attractive about being a stick! Guys prefer curves, and girls look alot healthier if they have a good bit of flesh on them!
There are many consequences of being underweight, if severe enough your life will be put at risk!
I know it's hard but you just gotta teach yourself to love yourself as you are! Try get some councelling, it will help you! All my love xxx
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reader, bfly36 +, writes (24 April 2008):
God gave u tast buds so u can enjoy foods. Thin ppl eat all kinds of foods they just moderate what they eat. You are taking metamucil probably to make u go to the bathroom alot to get rid of ur calories but focus on what u are putting in ur body hunnynot whats coming out, that takes care of itself. Im not a health food freak i have to admit but i eat until i feel full then i stop, in use to eat alot more then diet but mystomach got use to eating less and that's how it helps me stay thin. Dont focus on what u did but focus on what u want to change and dont expect miracle results, they say nothing good comes easy i wish that wasnt true but it is, anyway how much over weight are u according to ur height?
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reader, anonymous, writes (24 April 2008): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionAlso, as a note, I comsume massive amounts of metamucil powder in small quantities of water in hopes of reducing my fat intake, and I drink energie drinks, diet pop, and staker 2 energy shots. Ridiculously unhealthy, but hard to resist. :(
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reader, bfly36 +, writes (24 April 2008):
it sounds corny but seek counseling for eating disorder, that does not mean u are crazy but somthing inside of u is making u look at this weight thing a little out of proportion and if u get to the bottom of it it will help you. its amazing the stress we as women are under to be skinny and perfect and somtimes no matter what others say to us nothing sinks in, that is when its good to talk to someone you are very young and have so much ahead of u and this is taking too much time from ur mind hunny and keeping you from enjoying life and a sunday. good luck and be strong.
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