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writes:This past month I've been home from school, and this last week I started hanging out with this kid that I have always had a crush on, from afar. He is my friend's brother's friend. But throughout the years hanging out at her house, etc, we got to know each other too. I never in a million years thought I had a chance with him.. but we slept over my friend's house a few days ago and spent the whole next day there so we finally broke the quasi-friends line. last night i went to see his band play at a garage which subsequently was just a party. he hung around me a lot and we ended up getting rides home from him. i was last to be dropped off and of course i wanted to kiss him but i thought it might be too fast. so we just hugged. i was bummed that nothing happened. but then we talked online and he ended up picking me up at 3am to go to diner. i had been drinking at the show so i was just a little bit buzzed but it was not awkward at all. i have social anxiety and insane trust issues and insecurities. but i felt none of that when we were hanging out. ive never been able to open to someone so much. he is so lovely and i always envied his life - playing in a band and all. but he has no job and doesnt go to school and confided in me about how he feels trapped and all. i go to school out west and i think now.. he might envy my life. anyhow, we're going to see each other tonight because he never gave me the cd he promised me.. which is a pretty good excuse to see him, i'd say. but heres the thing.. ive never kissed a guy sober and i dont even know how to initiate itt? i know i just have to go for it, but what do i say/do if im rejected? i also dont think im a great kisser seeing as ive been drunk all the time. ALSO, he has a beard.. i think thats what intimidates me the most haha. he also is really outgoing and friends with a ton of people, and im wondering if he really just sees us as friends. my friend told me at the party that she thought he was hitting on me though. im leaving tomorrow so i wouldnt see him for 4 months so im wondering if i should really even do that to myself? im just really confused about this situation and need perspective.
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reader, anonymous, writes (16 January 2011): hi! this was my question. i suppose this question is irrelevant now, he ended up seeing me not just as a friend and we ultimately hooked up last night.
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reader, ssaarraahh  +, writes (16 January 2011):
 you shouldnt really kiss him so early. he might be takin u as only a friend. its better 2 wait.
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