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female
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:I cannot beleive I am doing this...but i feel i have no other choice but to ask for help from those not attached in any way to the situation.I am a girl who feel in love with some one i cant have for so many reasons. I am a military dependant (my father is in the military...i live at home) but i am almost eighteen. My mother is so very strick, my teens years were/are less than exciting. I am very mature for my age(too mature), i have no fun most of the time, i am always to busy with school or taking care of things around the house, and my mother doesnt let me out much anyway. I cant be out past dark, i live overseas, so i cant have a licence, and i have no interest in the juvinal ignorace of the boys i am forced to see everyday. But one day my dad brought home a soldier from work, i never thought of him as more than "a close friend of the family". He is 29 years old, he has a family in the states and hasnt seen them in years, his wife and him dont love each other any longer and plan to be devorced soon. He has two children that he loves very much, and misses them terribly. But somehow, we fell in love. Maybe it was all the late nights we spent together, but it has been a while since we met, and over that time we somehow fell in love. The first time we kissed, we kept telling each other that it was wrong, i'm under age, he's married, has two kids, is my dads friend, and he could be arested (not to mention other punishments givin by the military). He is over at the house all the time, spends the night almost every weekened. We stay awake all night and talk, we cook together, clean together, sit around and do nothing together, and i wish it could go on forever. I know that i shouldnt love him, and he deffinatly shouldnt love me, but the more we tell each other that, the more we love each other. I'm so confussed, i leave for college, and my university is very close to his house. What if he does get devorced, does that mean we can be together, but then how would i explain to my parents about our love? This is the only time i have ever done anythig like this, i know its wrong, he knows its wrong, but we have both shed tears at the thought of life without each other. I never thought i would be "that girl", the homewrecker, the hoe, the jailbait, the girl dating the guy too old for her. (and i never slept with him, just so you know, and i dont plan to). But why cant i seem to listen to my own better judgement? Why cant i stop loving him? Why am i in this situation to begin with?What do i do? I love him so much, if they get devorced then can we be together? But i dont know what to do till the time being....Some one please help!? xoxoToxicCandyxoxo?
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reader, Ich_liebe_dich  +, writes (9 February 2010):
 Run.... Run as fast and as far as you can....
This will lead to nothing but worst relationship.....
Seems you are a very pretty nice and strong person. I knew you can still handle your emotion. Dont go down there... Dont step more forward to it.. Step back.. dont take anymore risk.. Do it for yourself, you have a lots of good things waiting for you ahead.. I wish you really a good luck...
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