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writes:I realize that this is going to come across as feeling sorry for myself, and am thankful for what I DO have, but I can't help my heart's desires and I can't stop loving something that I love.I'm 32 years old, and I felt this way as a child but thought I would eventually outgrow it. I have always loved horses, and longed for one of my own. I used to ride horses as a kid and thought I would have one eventually... but, in my dreams, right? Well, lately I have been bored and depressed, I'm a teacher and pretty much my whole life revolves around pronouns and verbs and I have no life outside of work. I'm in a relationship and that's the only thing that really makes me happy, but otherwise I am bored to death with my life. Everyone where I live watches T.V. or goes shopping as a form of entertainment and friends suggest I do those things but the thought crushes my soul. Other girls think that I'm downright weird!Like I said, I used to ride horses when I was younger and lately I am beginning to realize that I'm bored and restless because I miss horses and riding. People are going to say I'm selfish and shallow to be depressed about this, when there are people with serious problems, such as diseases, but I can't help it. I'm feeling really sad because I love and miss horses and I'm depressed because I can never have them in my life again and I just long to have them back. I've never had a horse of my own, but I learned to ride as a kid and I spent time around them. I still haven't fallen out of love with them. Lately I've been blue over the loss of my dog, and there's a void and my life is missing a special animal. I never want another dog, as long as I live. I have a cat and a couple of pet rats, and I love them but don't know if they return my feelings. I've always been connected to animals and nature in a way that other people aren't and sometimes I feel lonely because no one understands me. I'm from the Southern USA originally. Mexico is a beautiful country, but I live in Uruapan, which is one of the worst parts of Mexico. I'm a country girl at heart and miss hiking in the mountains, riding horses and walking in the woods and sometimes I feel out of place in all the big city craziness of Uruapan. I've told friends how much I miss riding and they say, there aren't horses here in Uruapan, find something else... how about getting a TV set, or going shopping? But, those things will never fill my heart. How do I get over wishing I could ride again, and how do I get over longing for a horse of my own? I know it's stupid for me to be depressed because I miss riding horses and will never have them in my life again, but I can't help how I feel!
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 December 2011): I have not sat on a horse for over 30 years, except for two brief 1 hr rides when on vacations. I also rode for many hours as a child. I still miss it.
move to where you can have a horse. take whatever job you can.
life is short.
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