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writes:This is a bit lengthy and I don't know if you need all the details but here they are anyway. Thanks in advance. First off, I'm not one to post on sites like this; I can usually take care of myself seeing as I am a holder of a Master's in Psychology. But when it comes to matters of my own heart, I get lost a lot. Anyway, as a teenager, I dated a boy who was nine months younger than me for 3.5 years. He was not a nice guy at all. He physically and verbally abused me for the better part of our relationship and at one point, I was 4.5 months pregnant with his rape child. I was 19 and miscarried. He was 18 and blamed me for everything wrong with his life but "refused" to let me go.But I had a best guy friend who was helping me through everything and they almost fought at one point but I refused for them to even physically meet each other. A week after I finally got away from my ex, my best friend and I started dating. At the time, I thought it was the best decision I'd ever made: I was happy, he was happy that I was happy and we even lived together for a year and were engaged for three months.But then I started realizing that I hadn't had the opportunity to fully enjoy being single after my abusive ex and I broke up and I wanted that feeling. I didn't want to date other people; I just wanted to do my own thing for a while. And I explained all this to my best friend. He was upset and hurt and I understood that because I was, too, but I needed this and he loved me enough to understand that as well. So I moved back into my parents' house but continued helping out with rent by sending him $300 a month. It was the hardest thing either of us had ever gone through. Being separated, that is.Then he decided to move into a three bedroom house (a house I had dreamed of since I was a child) but never dated anyone else. He asked me to move in with him but I told him it would be a bad idea because would end up falling in love again. He told me, the way he always did, that he'd never fallen out of love with me. It was very hard to walk away after that.But after a small while, we lost touch with each other as I continued living with my parents and ultimately receiving my double Master's in Education and Psychology. I had gotten the car I've wanted since I was 20 and did my wardrobe and body modifications the way I wanted to when I was younger. I was finally ready to head out and make a life for myself and then find someone. I got a one bedroom apartment and started my career as a college Psychology professor at a community college. I was 24 then and hadn't spoken to my best friend in two years.Then one day, he showed up to one of my classes. When I got to his name on the attendance sheet, I looked up so quickly that I got a crick in my neck. He smiled that heart-melting smile of his and said, "Hi, Professor." From there, we went to coffee and what not and caught up with each other.Turns out, he's still living in that three-bedroom house renting out two of the rooms to a couple guys we went to high school with. He's also been working at the same company he'd gotten hired at when we were dating but needed a Psychology course to get a promotion he was looking at. He saw my name on the registration site and immediately signed himself up. The course ends the middle of May, so he and I technically can't start dating again until then but is it possible to fall back in love with someone? We're both 25, have both gone through our respective life experiences the last few years and I'm ready to have that serious relationship that he's wanted with me since the beginning.Obviously, it's not too late seeing as he's been the one to bring this stuff up but I've never disagreed, yet. I'll be honest, I feel like I'm sounding like an 18 year old in love again...
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reader, Maycie.Ann +, writes (30 March 2012):
 Well of course! There is no rule that says you can't be in love :)
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