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female
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:I don't understand why girls like me. I see myself as a terrible person to date and the more they like me the worst I feel. I feel immature and I feel like Im just no worth it, I feel like a kid inside because I cannot take care of them, obviously I don't let it show and all these girls think Im a confident, sweet and deep human being. Before I go on I am a lesbian. Right now five girls want to go out with me, even a straight girl and she is so pretty, many guys want to go out with her and yet she likes me, I feel like she is too good for me, so I avoid the subject. I just don't understand why anyone would want to date someone like me. I've been told I'm really special, I listen and give them advice, and girls don't really care about what you have to say and thats a good thing because I dislike talking about myself, I feel as if Im extremely boring so when they ask about my life I just say something short and ask them a question and they can talk for hours. I dont know if I'm good looking, I see myself and I don't see an ugly person, but I don't see a good looking person either. In the past I dated many girls, but I didnt want t, i feel like the ugly one in the family, I feel very rejected in that way. I didnt want to be with them sexually because I felt insecure so they end up cheating on me. Im not sexually confused, so thats not a reason, but in the past people made fun of me and I was bullied and my selfsteem went down the drain, and I cannot let it go. I dont know if this has anything to do with it. I hate having girls liking me, I know some of you would like that, but even before I think about anything, I already see them leaving me so I tell them I'm not interested. what can I do to stop this, either stop them from trying to be all over me or stop this self hatred. I don't know what to do. I love when they leave me alone because then I can relax and just not worry about heartaches or anything, Im not the type of girl to look for a relationship or sex or nothing but I want to eventually get married or have a life partner since we gays cannot get married. So whats wrong with me?
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reader, Lee Adama  +, writes (17 December 2009):
 I think you really answered your own question. For a variety of reasons, all of which can be found in your past, you have a self esteem that rivals mine..... congratulations!
Now comes the really hard part though, cos now you have to try and do something about it. & in all honesty, if you have similar issues to me, which it sounds like you do, you'll probably need professional help..... unless you want to end up like me, but I wouldn't recommend it.
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