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female
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26-29,
anonymous
writes:im not really sure where to begin to so guess ill just start. Lately things at my house have been choatic and crazy. As of last year during fall my mom started doing pills again. i didnt find out about this till i met a girl who im very goodfriends with told me cause her mom was my moms dealer..till my mom and her mother got into all because she sold some methodome my mom wanted. she told me it wasnt the bad stuff...im thinking im 16 not stupid..after the fact my dad and my sister already knew what was going on because she either sleeps all day, cleans or is out till late at night. we've talking to her, telling her she needs help i;ve even wrote her a letter cause i already knew if i told her by mouth id get extremely angry and start calling her names..that didnt even work. She took as if we want her gone when really we're saying YOU NEED HELP! Its hard to talk to her she'll be bring up irrrelvant things from the past to switch the whole conversation on to the person thats talking to her or trys to make herself look like a victim..I've asked her "what do you expect us to do? we cant go back in time and change that". There have plenty of times when ive gotten so full of anguish that ive almost want to put my hands on her..I dont know what to do at all, im at my wits end. Ive picked her up off the floor the numerous times she has fallen repeatedly in one night, i practically take care of her autistic son, who is my brother, i change, feed and get him off the bus everyday when my dad and sister are gone and shes off spending money when we can barely pay our bills. im not saying that i dont like taking care of him cause thats my little brother and i love him to death but thats her son.. One day i didnt come because i needed to stay afterschool to do work and i get a txt from my friend i mentioned earlier that she was very mad at me because i wasnt at the house to get my little brother off the bus and she was at a doctors appointment. She sent me a txt saying that i never answer the phone for one except for my byfriend which is entirely not true i answer for anyone either call or txt. that day i didnt even know she had a "doctors appointment"..The she said she wasnt going to pay for the monthly refill cards on my phone simply because of that. When im at school i dont even get service whats so ever so how was i supposed to know? I'm absolutely exhausted, i want to emanicpate myself so i can be away from all of the occasinal yelling, fighting because one person is an addict and the other a philanderer. I cant hardly go anywhere or have my friends come over. Why cant i be a teenager, atleast for a little while..Im asking myself why am i here, i dont serve a purpose at all epsecially my life is going to be like this everyday. Frustration, anger, mental and pyschial exhaustion its too much. I just dont know what to do...
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reader, anonymous, writes (2 June 2012): This is a hard topic. It might help to call a recovery center or support group for advice.
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