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female
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51-59,
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writes:This really isn't a question but more of a revelation more of a what not to do... I was put on this earth as we all were some with more gifts than others some smart, some wealthy, some pretty or handsome so many gifts we can start life with.... all these things that can start a person in what direction their life will go in. I was a bit fortunate I was pretty had some comforts a lot of comforts..... but one thing I never had was genuine kind people in my life. I was always and I mean always fighting almost to breath cause I never new who I needed to stand up against wether it was my father mother brothers it was survival it wasn't ever be yourself that was always frowned upon and made fun of. So here I sit at 41 realizing what a waste of time I have spent fighting and for what just to breath just to be able to come up for air when no one was going to hurt me. I have had people through my life look at me wonder what is wrong why are you always running? whether it was to an other country another state or through drugs but always hurting myself. And I can only apologize to me NOW. All those people who have hurt me are insugnificant..... I was so used to this crazy tread mill I have been on my whole life I never gave myself a chance to really be me. I was always scared I was going to be hurt for being me. and now with tears in my eyes I pray that any who is me or is on my path to stop now. and I mean NOW..... There is nothing to run to..... You only have you.......
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reader, Abella +, writes (11 December 2010):
 be kind to yourself every day. Make sure every day you do one good thing for you, that helps you, and and you will know that one person who truly deserved to be treated well, received othat good treatment. It can be buying yourself a bunch of flowers. Ensuring you have on hand a lovely perfume to spray on you after your shower each morning. It can be anything that does not harm you nor
harms anyone else, but lifts your spirits and makes you feel good - a swim in the ocean, a walk in a beautiful garden, or sitting down to watch a beautiful sunset.
I wish you well for the future.
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