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writes:First of all, my grammar is very bad.. sorry bout that.. hope you can understand my story..I like my senior, Kim. We know each other for more than one year and we are quite close. His close friends is my close friends as well. They (Ed and Dan) knew that I like him and always encourage me to tell him bout my feeling. Every time I refused cause I know that he saw me as a friend only. But every time also they asked me how I know, and they sure that he take me more than that, but the only problem is religion. They always said, that Kim always talked about me, and how he always help me secretly whenever I have problem. He always there whenever I need help or when I'm down. I like him too much, but I always know that it's one sided. I tried few times to forget him, but I'm unable to do so. Every time I will back to liking him again. One day, I couldn't take it anymore, and decided to tell Kim bout my feeling so that I can move on. But I'm not dare to tell him directly. Ed told me, that he can help me to tell Kim. I agreed to this, and asked Ed to not let Kim know that I asked Ed to tell him. I told Ed, that I will act like I don't know anything so that I can face him after the rejection. Ed told me that when he told Kim that I like him, he's really shocked, and asked Ed to not tell me anything. He need to think about this, and he suddenly dissapear. Few hours later, he's back and told Ed that he only saw me as a sister. He told Ed to not tell me anything, and he will act like nothing happen. Everything will be back to normal, and case close.But he didn't do what he said. Few hours later, he asked Ed, what should he do. He want to make me feel like he has a girlfriend, and it's impossible for him to like me back. He also told Ed, to not tell Dan and me about this. The next day, when we saw each other, I admit that I can't face him properly. But I still try to be as normal as I could. But he is not. He asked me question that he wouldn't ask before, and became very formal. We are like a stranger who's trying to act like a close friends. I cried infront of Ed, telling him, I don't wish things become like this. I thought that it was a simple rejection, and we can back to normal. But apparently he can't do it. After few days, we start back to normal. But not as close as before. I thought things will get better. But turn outs it's not. On Sunday night, one week after this rejection happen, Dan called me. He asked me, how did Kim knew that he knew Kim rejected me? Dan also said that Kim was very angry with Dan for hiding it from him. He expect Dan to tell him everything and how he is so sad with this things. I was quite upset with what Kim did. I didn't see the reason for him to scold Dan for not telling him. Since, it's my secret, and Dan don't have the right to tell him without my permission. And monday Kim told me that he knew everything. He asked me whether we can back to normal, and when talk to him, please look at him. Don't avoid his eyes. He want us to be back like before. I agreed to be back like before. We only back to normal for 3 days. Again, Kim is not normal. He's creating some distance between us now. I don't know what should I do. I really going crazy. I really like him, and I don't want us to be like this. I can't accept on how he asked me to be normal again, but at the same time he can't. He make it hard for me to face him. I'm desperately want to forget him, but I really don't know what should I do. I just want to be back like before. I don't know where can I express this feeling already. Its really killing me, and I'm tired of it. I losing my mind. I tried to make myself busy now. I need some opinion on this. Help me.Thanks
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reader, anonymous, writes (2 March 2011): First,this is confuse kind of question you make. Like, with the who said the who to what, and all. Then, also,just really it is hard to concieve of? So it seem like you have the strong feeling for this kim? Or who,then? And,the friend makes the communicateing to be hard. And not right? It hard to be normal friend when you have the extra feeling not return by some other person,so maybe explain in person,not to go threw this other fiend, then?
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reader, Seline +, writes (1 March 2011):
Seline is verified as being by the original poster of the questionhi IHateWomanBeaters,
its impossible to get away from him.. since we are working in the same place.. under same manager.. :S
thanks for ur reply.. :)
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reader, IHateWomanBeaters  +, writes (28 February 2011):
 The constant exposure to somethign that you like that you cannot have, will prevent you from getting passed it.
You need to get away from him in over to get over him.
Nothing else can be done.
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