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female
age
30-35,
anonymous
writes:So i have been dating my boyfriend well over a year now. We go to separate colleges and see each other if luck, two times a month. Next year im transferring to his school. I currently hate the school im at and am upset and emotional almost all the time. I've started to go home and or visit friends more on weekends when i can find rides. Otherwise, the weekdays usually keep me busy. Whilst being away, and being sad, and missing my boyfriend, i always criticize myself for the bad things i have done to him. He knows about them, and really they aren't bad things i just over analyze everything. Well there is this one guy who i went out for ice cream with almost a year ago(but yes when we were dating). I didn't even like this kid as a friend let alone anything more then that. And he was seeing my good girlfriend at the time who i was in a fight with for over three months, and he was going to try ti fix it. Low and behold we didn't talk about that situation hardly at all. I knew he liked me because he told me to break up with my boyfriend many times. Obviously i didnt, i loved my boyfriend then and i love him now, i'd never do that. anyway, my boyfriend knew about it and now doesn't like the guy(can't blame him). But recently that girlfriend of mine has started to come back into my life. Along with her, came the thoughts of that boy. I find myself beating myself up(not literally) about how i did that to my boyfriend. I don't like the kid at all. But my mind is going crazy, its like its telling me to convince myself to like him, or break up with my boyfriend, or comparing him to my boyfriend. He literally is the most shallow, ignorant, skeese i've ever met. I don't want to be with him. But why is my mind doing this? Its making me feel extra sad about my boyfriend, and im super confused! Can anyone help intemperate this? Will it go away? I am so in love with my boyfriend and i know i couldnt ever be away from him. That's why im so confused by this. Please help! Reply to this Question
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