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female
age
18-21,
problem_child
writes:i`m an 18 year old girl who has been thourgh A LOT throughout her life. im diagnosed with borderline(thats something like depression). and now things are getting really hard for me and i dont what to do anymore. when i was 16 i got a crush on my best friend. that was the first time i had feelings for a girl. after that i still messed around with guys , but i think that that is only becuz that are so few gay girls where i live. i never had sex with a girl before but thats now becuz i dont want to . i did have sex with a guy , but the only reason i enjoyed it is becuz i was able to satisfy him.and now i`m in love with another girl . to me shes the most beautiful girl on earth.inside and out. and i really want to be with her,but her parents wont let us. i also find myself being disgusted by guys when i think of having sex with them. i can be friends with them, but no sex for me. but with a girl,its totally different. so i think im gay. but i have a hard time accepting that. cuz when ur young you always learn that you will grow old with a husband and children .. but this picture(as a lesbian) has totally changed now, and i dont wanna dissapoint my parents. i havent done a lot of things to make them proud but i dont want to make it worse by being gay. but im not sure if im gay. im confused
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reader, Polly Russell-Furse  +, writes (18 November 2007):
 Your letter suggests you are 18-21, so therefore are an adult and need to make up your own mind in the end. Your parents are of course worried as you have sufferred from depression - but don't pressure yourself or put yourself into a category. It could be that you just fancy this girl and next time someone else could catch your heart and they might happen to be a boy.
Just enjoy your feelings. Have you asked your friend why her parents won't let her date you? Take everything in your stride, your only young.
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reader, problem_child +, writes (18 November 2007):
problem_child is verified as being by the original poster of the questionoh and i have to add another thing:
ive never been in a long term relationship with a guy. the longest a relationship between me and a guy lasted is about 2 months.
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