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*anadianhotass's profile: My brief explanation of why I am here... I am a 20 yr old, turned 20 last week!! yaaay! Living in calgary alberta canada. I was born in St. John's Newfoundland Canada, and moved to calgary when i was 7 with my mother and her second husband, leaving my real father and rest of family behind. I remember we moved from home for a few reasons, 1st being i burnt our house down with a lighter i was playing with the year prior... oops, and i was raped, and my mother was also pregnant with her second child, with her second husband, who gave me my beautiful little sister Emily. my mother and father splitt up when i was a newborn, so i dont have many memories of him, just weekend visits. I have been back and forth between calgary and st. john's alot in my life, and it has been crazy every time. When i was hitting 11 and 12 yrs old, i started drinking and running away from home, because my step-dad was beating me. and everytime i ran away, i'd end up right back at home. When i hit 13, i was too much for my parents, and my mother threw me out, so i was on the streets of calgary alberta. my father found out and wanted me home with him immediatly, which was done. I flew out to see this man who was my father, that i knew no better than a stranger, in my teens of all things too. Then i was introduced to a few more drugs, and then coke, was my new best friend. i got into alot of legal trouble, and went to a juvinle jail for 2 and a half yrs. Got out, did some more stuff with a 21 yr old woman, Dawn, i had just met. Me and her started to get physicaly attracted to each other, and dated. while we were hiding out from police, i was staying at my at a female friends house, and she had a brand new baby boy, 7months old. she was a great mom, but her house wasnt very "new baby appropriate" so me and dawn decided to clean the house, and we did, perfect. the baby had a breathing problem, and after we cleaned the house, he was breathing PERFECT! the next afternoon, about 12pm, me and dawn woke up to the mom SCREAMING and crying with her baby in her arms "hes dead" over and over, he was purple and limp in her arms, and right there my heart broke, i couldnt believe it. We called 911 and told us to do cpr, but he was dead for hours i knew it, he was just warm still from being wrapped up. The cops were comming, i had to go, her dad came BURSTING through the doors as we were leaving, we HAD to go, the cops... so we ran, we took off, it was canada day,july 4th 2001 and we decided to leave then and there, she was to come with me back to calgary. We had a backpack each, and 50 dollars between the 2 of us, enuff to get on the ferry and get accross the water. i was 14 and me and her hitched hiked from the farthest eastern point of canada almost all the way accross the country in 3 weeks. we stayed in moncton for 2 weeks, to make a paycheck. we slept on a blanket layed down on the ground outside. and it was cold. we got alot of rides from truckers. so it was kinda safe... we got to saskatoon, where we were dropped off by a trucker for the last time. and i called my mother, and she INSISTED that she would pick us up! not knowing dawn was a woman, she assumed i was with a man. that went not so good, so she threw us out of her house. Meanwhile i hadnt spoke with my father since after i was locked up. so we grabbed 2 bikes, and biked from airdrie alberta canada to calgary, where i went to my old best friends house. (since then our friendship has gone bitter) i introduced dawn to all my friends, and to a girl, who was my best friend since we were 2 yrs old, renee. so i started to get ill. my stomach has a disease (not contagous) so when i was in the hospital, dawn would go see renee and fuck her, and then come to the hospital to see me, how sweet. Soi found out by renee calling me when i got out of the hospital, n i was devestated, all these people in my life i knew for yrs, jus threw me away like trash. hurt me so bad. and to THIS day, dawn n renee are enagaged, hahah. After i tried suicide by pill overdose, and failed, i was sent to a child lockdown therapy facility. where i remained for 2 months. it was all i could think about, i couldnt eat, i couldnt sleep. nothing. eventually, through journals n music n friends i made in the center,(who i am still good friends with today) i got out and was sent to a child homeless center, again, wrong crowd. i was downtown calgary, and this BEAUTIFUL man saw me and stopped in his brand new 02 denali. i was compelled to go with him , his face was so soft, and he was perfect. body and all, he was half white and half lebanese, Mehal. he asked me to come back with him to his house, and i did. he took me to this brand new house, 4 bedroom, 3 bath, BEAUTIFUL. there he had 3 roomates, and they invited me to stay, if i was a maid. hahahah i did it. seemed fine. i cleaned, and they gave me a room and food and coke. LOTS of it, they dealt it. i lost alot of wieght. and then one day, they all turned on me. mehal said i was to have sex with whoever he said i had to have sex with. his family, everyone, i was shocked n freaked out, there was no way... so they packed up my shit n put it in the car, n said they would pay for my hotel room, i want staying there no more. so me, desperate, cant fuckin believe this is happening, i saw stop, please, what do u want, ill do whatever u want, so they turned down a few roads n pulled up to a condo where 5 men were waiting for me. i was gang raped, and then sent to vancouver bc canada with mehal to do prostitution, and would having rather died than do it, i ran back to calgary. and staying at another homeless shelter for youth, i met aaron, My boyfriend who i have now been with for over 4 and a half yrs. And he saved me. helped me quit coke. i dont drink. i dont smoke ciggs. just pot. im who i am today because of so many things. My story is no where near done or in depth, ive missed so much already, but im not goin to go on. This is where im at today. not sure bout tomorrow...

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