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writes:hey everyone,im using this site because i need to get my feelings out. im 17 years old and ive been through so much crap in my life. (molested, abused physically and mentally, and left by both of my parents, adoptedd). i am the type of girl who never cries, never lets anyone in, and acts like i dont care about anything or anyone. i have lots of friends known for my personality, as the fun crazy girl. anyways about 2 years ago i moved to a new school. i felt out of place buhh eventually learned to LOVEE the school. we have a resource officer(cop) during the school year.. lets call him john smith. if u would of asked me a year in a half ago how i felt about mr smith and i would say absoluely nothing.. to me he was just a cop. one day i really needed someone to tlk to the stress at home was really getting to me, so i tlked to him. we tlked for about an hour and it felt so natural, everything jus flowed out, tears, laughing all the above. i felt so comfortable around him it scared me. tht was the day tht changed everything. i soon ALWAYS wanted to be around him, i trusted him with everything, and tld him EVERYTHING. hes the one person on this earth who knows me better than i know myself. i like everything about him especially the little things about him. like when im mad aand he tries to make me laugh in such chezzy ways tht i cant help buh smile. i like how when i catch him staring at me he gets all red..(soo cute). he is not the type of guy i would ever be intrested in. his beuaty on the inside makes him AMAZING on the outside as well. sometimes i feel he has feelings for me but hes married with children. exampless1. not to be conceited but im a pretty girl and hes a typical guy and checks me out2. he tries to get me out of trouble when ever he can3. we spend a lot of time together4. i was complaining about an ex who use to hit me and he tld me tht i need to let people see the real me like he does and there would be a hundred of guys who feel the same way about me as he does.5.we make each other laugh6. he wlks me to class7. i make little sexy innapropiate comments and he laughs and says im krazy.8. compliments me on how i look tht day.9.tells me im really nice.10. most important he listens to me and makes me feel like im the prettiest, smartest woman in the world.every teacher in the school always tells me we care about each other and they can tell. im stuck. ive never felt this way about anyone in my life. and as much as i want to i kant let him go. he means the world to me. its summer time and hes been on my mind every single day. is this worth holding on to or schould i move on. oh and did i mention his age 31 =/. he always tells me to follow my heart buh i dont think he knows it leading me to him. he is a special person, diff then anyone ive ever known. its hard to describe how i think he feels for me buhh there is a look he gives me and its the same look i give him. i kno for a fact he CARES. but is it in the way i want it to be is the question. HES PERFECT.
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reader, anonymous, writes (20 August 2010): Well firstly you say he's married with children? That should give you some idea that any other relationship apart from a friendship is bad news. Secondly, it sounds to me like a school girl crush, he's nice to you and listens to your problems, which is obviously a good thing but i think that's all it is, to him anyway, it's his job to help people, not to say that he doesn't like you or care about you, i'm sure he does, but i don't think you should mistake that for romantic feelings on his part.
Even if for whatever reason you got involved with this guy it can only end in bad news. He's a married man with children and i think you should respect that and make the most of what you do have, which is a good friend who can care share your problems and feeling s with. What would you rather have, a fling with a married man or a good friend for life? If anything happened between you two you could never go back to the way it was before and your friendship would more than likely be over.
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