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writes:its a bit long...please read it, i will be very thankful to you....i am damn shit scared about something at this point of life ...i have been with this girl since 2 years and we are very close to each other ....we are very special for each other and know each other very well and share everything and talk everyday.....we got committed in between but i broke it off because i was committment phobic...she got hurt but we remained friends after that....to be in true sense, we never remained less than gf-bf and the only difference was that we never did anything...many a times we went back and forth but as a whole, we were very close and couldnt imagine our lives without each other's presence in it ...i knew one thing, she loved me from all her heart but i always hesitated because i wasnt sure about my feelings! but i couldnt stay distant from her anytime and always wanted that closure from her also i wasnt ready for any committment....i used to cry a lot when she was away from me and every little thing reminded me of her and used to choke me from inside ....even i meant a lot to her and same was the situation with her...but now the time has come where we cant control the situation but it can.....deep inside i knew i just liked her as a best friend but i always scared to lose her because of this confusion....when i was too close to her i panicked and told her it was just a confusion, but when we were distant, i felt i cant live without her! even im sick of it!we are quite grown up with the topic of sex and shared everything and laughed...she was distant sice a few days and this time i really felt how much she means to me....she met me yesterday and i told her about how badly i missed her and cried in these days...we kind of patched up once again and she asked me whether i wanted to feel her boobs ...i wasnt that hasitant as i felt this time i truly have something for her in that way ...so we smotched and i touched her boobs ....we left with happy faces and she said i was the best person in her life and best thing ever happened to her .....even i was very happy to get her back as i didnt expect anyone would trust me after my confused behaviour....then the same cycle repeated itself, i came home and was shit scared to lose her if i said it was just a confusion and that i truly respected her and can do literally anything to save this friendship..i became panicky thinking how much she means to me and what will life be without her because no girl could remain the same good friend after that....i felt terribly guilty and couldnt imagine such a special person away from me ....i felt i can ruin it if i act foolish now....scary thoughts dominated my mind and i thought whether it will be possible to remain friends if she finds someone for her in future ...will it be weird ...am i overthinking?? i feel more of like i love her but am just overthinking and thinking of my past feelings ....maybe because i am completely idle and have no work.....i dont want to lose her in any case and cant see her upset and distant from me ....please advice....thanks for the time ...god bless
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 December 2009): Ok really. Marry her now. Quit being a dumb ass and do it. If u can't see life with out her then why be with out her. If u don't marry her now someone else will and u will be out of luck kicking ur self. WAKE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 December 2009): it sounds like your friendship has grown into love. Thats the best kind.
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 December 2009): i am the asker of this question ....
i keep on analysing whether i truly love her....but one thing is for sure , her absence make me feel im a dead body alive ...why do i feel like it ? am i ust addicted ? have i not given my self a chance to live without her ? if at all this is only friendship, how can i save it and not lose such a caring girl ? should i tell her the truth and leave her for some time.....not will it be a mistake because she will never trust me again... i feel miserable and helpless....i have left a stain on our beautiful friendship and nothing is in my control i feel
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