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female
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30-35,
*azedandconfused123
writes:The below is a story about, love, betrayal, cheating, and fate...In order for you to understand my story, I have to take it back TO THE BEGINNING. 6 years ago I met my now ex-boyfriend. After a year of us dating, we both moved across the country and he got his dream job traveling the world working for a guy - who we'll just say has an infamous career. I will refer to him as "BT" As the years went on, my boyfriend and I became apart of BT's family. His girlfriend made it her mission to become best friends with me, and we did. Her and I were sisters. The only difference was the 5 year age gap between us (her being older). This went on happily for a few years, we spent holidays together, traveled, partied, did it all. Throughout this time my relationship was mostly on shaky grounds. We always seemed to argue, fight, or just not get along. But, we kept it together because ultimately we loved each other, and we also got to do all these amazing things together. Circling back to BT, I was very observant of him over the years - truthfully I always knew I was attracted to him, so I purposely would pay him little mind, never look him in the eyes, and even avoid conversation. I REALLY LIKED THIS GUY. But I thought how could I? His girlfriend was my best friend, my boyfriend was his employee. There was too many RED FLAGS, I could never let anyone know that I secretly wanted to be with him. So, I would at times daydream of it when the thought crossed my mind. Then that turned into having sexual dreams about him, and I would wake up to my boyfriend lying next to me. It drove me nuts! [A Little Backstory] I am quite a beautiful girl, and truthfully I am considerably more pretty than his girlfriend, so I would wonder constantly if he ever noticed me, felt attracted, or just anything to make me believe I wasn't alone in this. When I really started to pay attention I noticed that he was giving me mixed signals, but he knew what he was doing and it would never be anything that would give me an "ok" to make a move. YES, I knew how complicated the situation was but I WANTED this man like no other thing on the planet. The more I got to know him the more my feelings grew. So, fast forward to about 2 years ago BT and his girlfriend find out that they are having a baby, he then purposes to her - and they are on track to be married. As time progressed, all of our relationships got strained. I knew I felt a little unsettled about having these feelings for my friends soon to be husband/father of her baby so, I just stopped contacting her because I knew I could never truly be the friend she deserved. Even after 4 years of friendship. Soon afterwards, without warning my boyfriend gets fired - with no clear reason either - after 4 years of a working relationship. She never reached out to me afterwards, and everything just kind of went downhill with my boyfriend from there. Sadly, I think maybe my relationship wasn't as appealing when BT wasn't around. So, they move on to have their baby about a year ago, and then get married just under 6 months ago. In all that time, I had only seen and spoke to either of them briefly after their baby was born. It was at a party I had attended with my boyfriend and I literally just greeted them, and kept my distance. Shortly after my boyfriend and I called it quits, and he and I moved out of a apartment we shared. So, during that time I had really focused on my business, and then ended up landing my DREAM JOB. As small as the world is, the client I ended up working with is good friends with BT, and work with him all the time. So, believe it or not a few weeks ago we get booked on the same job, and are both flown out of town. He had no idea I had the job so he didn't know he would see me. But we run into each other in the airport, and for the first time I notice him noticing me. As the day goes on, I get to my hotel and while I'm in the lobby I send a text to one of BT's friends - who was there as well. As I'm asking where they're staying BT and his co-workers walk up behind me, and basically try to scare me! I realize then that they are staying in the same hotel and we agree to meet up later. The plot thickens...So, we run into each other again at the show we're in town for business for, and for the first time he see's first hand what I do, my role, and I can tell he's impressed. So, I go out my way to talk to him, and he immediately gives me an flirty energy I've never felt from him before. I then realize that this is the first time we've been without our significant others and have had the opportunity to be ourselves. We connect instantly. He invites me and my co-workers to all to come out later with him, and a part of me felt like he wanted me there. So, I show up late with a few girlfriends and he immediately sees me, and then makes a joke that I took his seat when I walked in, He then encourages me to drink as we re-cap the old days, and he compliments me on my new position. As the party ends, we get invited to another party at a hotel - I immediately hop in the car with him and his friends. We all laugh and joke the whole way there. Once we get there, we start to talk and really just enjoy each others company. For the first time I confess to him, "the reason I stopped being friends with your girlfriend was because I knew I could never be a real friend to her if I liked you." He pauses, and replies "that makes sense." After realizing the secret I just let slip out, I panic and walk away. I go across the room to talk to a friend. See sees him in her peripheral, and tells me that he won't stop staring at me. So, eventually we leave together secretly. I end up in his hotel room, we make out, strip each other, and have sex, AND ITS MIND BLOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We lay down afterwards and cuddle for about a minute, and I could just feel myself feeling something more for him. So, I instinctually panic, get out the bed, start getting dressed...walk around the bed, give him a kiss on his lips and say, "We don't have each others numbers so...See you never." I walk over to pick up my shoes, and leave him standing in the doorway to the bedroom, and just walk out. HANDS DOWN that experience was the one of the most fulfilling sexual experience I've had, and the way he f****d me was gentle, but aggressive...then almost loving. I have no idea what any of it means. I just know I want more of him. But, it's been about two weeks now, and nothing. Like I said we never exchanged numbers, and going out my way to contact him would be suspicious as well as my name showing up on his phone. But, I wonder if he feels the same as me about the experience...I wonder if it scared him as much as he did me...or maybe more since he's the one in less than a 6 month marriage. His friend that was there, and witnessed us together told me that he hadn't cheated at all since he's been married...except with me. Does this mean anything? Does he feel a way about me? Has he always? Or was I a mistake, and that's why he hasn't tried to contact me? Or is he scared to because he wants to do it again to? Just not destroy his family in the process...I know we will be in a room together again because we work in the same industry, and live in the same city. But, am I prepared for that? Why do I want him so much with no care about who gets hurt?
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reader, anonymous, writes (26 July 2017): You may have more feelings than he does. I think it was just a convenient opportunity to have sex. He's away from home, and you had a chance to throw it out there that you have eyes for him.
I think there is a bit of opportunism going on here. He's away from the mother of his child, and you're broke-up with your boyfriend. You basically let him know you were up for fooling around. So you went for it.
There's nothing new about lusting for someone who belongs to somebody else. Secret hookups are pretty typical of guys on business trips. Almost cliche. The time and setting was perfect for cheating.
Let him be. He's already taken.
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