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writes:text This is Your Average "Im In Love W. My Teacher Story". Minus The Average Part and There's Alittle More Excitment Then That.. This Is Your "In Love with a Cop Story"My Life. This Great Untold Story That Everyone Has Started Eighteen Years Ago. My Parents, The Lovely, Responsible People That They Are Decided It Was a Great Idea To do Drugs While Pregnant W. Muah ! W. That Beinq Explained ive Been Seperated From Them Since Those Terrible Two's ( In My Case i Never Grew Out of Them ) My Beauutiful Aunt Took Me In When i Was Six, After i spent Three Years In The Foster Home System. Lets Just Say Our Relationship Is Best If We Dont Talk At All. We Dont Get Aloung..and According To Her Im Only Worth The Paycheck She Gets Every Month. As For a Family, Well i Have a Step Dad Who Took a Much Different Interest in Me Untill i Was 15 and Got Too Old For His Liking, And W. My Mom/Aunt i Have 3 Siblings. My Life Has Been a Complete Train Wreck and Dealinq With. It Isnt Something i Really Knew How To Do. So i Hid It From The World. Until i Met Steve. He Was The Complete Opposite Of All The People i Surrounded Myself W. He Tought Me How To Love Myself and Others As Well. He Looked At Life In a Beautiful way. In Ways None Of Us Would Ever Look At Life. i Was Able To Tell Him Everything and He Really Listened. He Was 18 At The Time But It Didnt Stop Us From Fallinq In Love. He Knew Me Better Than i Knew Myself. He Introduced Me Into Writing and The Beauty Of Language. He Ws My First, and i Know i Was Young But Sexuality Was AlWays Part of My Life, But For The First Time It Felt Right. Yeah i Was too young at 14, But Menatlly i Was Much Older. Steve Ended Up Commiting Suicide. For The Longest Time i Blamed Myself Because i Was So Wrapped Up in My Own Drama i Couldnt Help Him with His. He Was In a Car Accident and All His Friends Died But Him. He Was The Driver. Thinqs Never Got Better Between Me and My family and i Forgot How To Write. i Forgot How To Laugh, and Smile, Love and Be Happy. My Family and i Ended Up Moving When i Was 16 and When i Arived At My New School It Was Very Different Then What i Was new Too. it Was Here Where i Met This Short, Older, Nerdy/Goofy Police Officer, Who Also Happens To Be a regular guy we see at school. He Reminded Me Of Who i Can Be and How i AM Special To Someone Out There. i Also Have a Teacher, Who Got Me Writing Again.i Fell InLove W. This Officer When i Was 16. Im Now 18 and Still He Is The Only Person Who Can Make Me Smile With out Force. He HAs a Family, a Wife and i Dont Want To Ruin That For Him, But i Know i Wont Be Able To Last Another Year In High School, My Senior Year and Not Want To Tell HimSee, Love Has No Restrictions. No Preferences. She Doesnt Choose Who Feels Her. But When It Happens Your Judgement Is Clouded. Your Emotions Take Toll Over Everything You Do.Its Hard For Me To Trust People. To Put Myself In Situations where Ill Get Hurt. i Try To Date Guys My age But i Want HIM. i Love The Way He shakes His Head When i Tell Him Something He Doesnt want to Hear, i Love the Way He Looks In My Eyes, i Love That He Defends me Even When im Wrong, Just to Prove He's On My Side. i Love When His Eyes Light Up And He Smiles When We See Each Other.i Know He Is Afraid To Let Him Self Feel What He Already Does. and i Dont Want Him To Feel That Way. How Can i Make This right For The Both Of US ! i Want To Kiss Him SOOO BAD. a Kiss Tells You Everything you Need To Know About a Guy
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reader, Abella  +, writes (15 August 2011):
 Also this link may help.
I too have come through and survived what you suffered when Steve left and no one would ever suggest it is easy.
http://www.dearcupid.org/question/coping-with-bereavement-of-losing-your-love-to.html
So I hope the above link helps
Regards
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reader, Abella +, writes (14 August 2011):
You have made it this far and you write well. Despite all the odds you are clearly a survivor. But may I ask, did you get counselling to help you work through your feelings after Steve left? Because if you didn't get at least three months counselling after that I would suggest you try it. Because it works.Your Police friend will no doubt know a good female Police officer - and you could talk to her and ask her to help determine what support is appropriate over the unwanted 'interest' shown in you. Also some counselling on your family situation would help.Another professional who could assist you would be a social worker who might be able to support you to develop better decision making.Because of all you have endured I have no doubt that it has made you feel very hurt.The good police officer you see sometimes at school is showing you a good fatherly side. He would not want to jeopardise his career by inappropriate conduct.And it is very unfair to expect this.When you have had some good counselling you will come to realise that any kind interest does not get repaid by intimate behavior.Because of your upbringing, or lack thereof, it is possible that you are not connecting with guys your age.But trust me on this: there are millions of cute, nice, good honest honorable guys out there who are single and available. Nice guys around your aged group who could be interested in dating a nice girl like you. There may even be some nice local guys who would love to treat you respectfully and enjoy your company. So my suggestions are:get your hair restyled. It will make you feel betterGet some counselling - the school may have a counsellor. Or maybe can suggest a suitable counsellor. Ask for a female counsellor.Ask the Police officer to recommend a good Female police offer who can also offer you good support. Read up all you can about troubled teens who turned their lives around - might give you some ideas on how such books are written - for when you write your own book on how you survived your family It is not ordained that you should mess up the private life of this Police Officer - so please do not even consider it. Since it would ruin him and ruin the friendship.Best wishes for the future
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reader, anonymous, writes (14 August 2011): "...He HAs a Family, a Wife and i Dont Want To Ruin That For Him....."
you have had a very traumatic life BUT now u are going to lead a worse life if you become the homewrecker here. this man is married and you should respect his wife.
do u want more curses and more heartache and pain in your life? do you want to destroy this womans home?
this married man is a user and u will destroy your life if u continue with him.
if u want to lead a better life and grow up to be proud of yourself, then i suggest with leaving this married man . concentrate on your own lie and better it.
LoveGirl
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