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writes:I hesitate to write this, as I've only ever told this to my father, my husband and one other close relative... But I hope it might comfort some people and give a little hope.When I was four years old, I had a beautyful dream. I was staying at my Nonna Anna's, because Mamma was in hospital, recovering from giving birth to my baby sister.The dream began with a long corridor, which I rushed up carried by curiosity and a slight sense of purpose: the brightest daylight shone at the end of it and outside I saw my mother, naked, with wings behind her. I was ammazed, as I had never seen such a thing, but she hugged me and that was all I cared about. I could see people in the distance, but my mother didn't move or let me go too far from that entrance. She told me:"Amore (my love), I have to go away and you won't see me for what will seem like a very long time, but you must be strong for Papa, he'll need you!"I didn't think to ask many questions, for the air was filled with wisdom and knowledge. There was no sense of time nor space, past and future were all clear to me and everything made sense, without need of thoughts nor words... I hugged her again and she saw me off, as I turned around and woke up in my bed.The next thing I remember is my father coming up the stairs and falling to his knees, as he saw me. He was crying and didn't know what to say.I just said "Don't worry, Papa, I'll be here to look after you!"I later told him of that dream and then asked when Mamma would come back from hospital... All I got was another hug and more tears.I had that dream once more, a few years later, but found out in my adult years that my father had a visit from my mother a few weeks later. He was at a friend's house and the whole household was woken up in the middle of the night by a scent of flowers. They all went to the room where my father was and witnessed his talk with my mother. All the clocks stopped at three o'clock and were never fixed by the family, in memory of that night.I won't go into it, because it is not my story, but an important message she gave my dad was this:"Don't cry for me, try not to wish me alive, because your sorrow holds me back. I need to pass on! Don't worry, we will meet again, I will pray for it."My mother and sister died in hospital, a week apart from each other, I don't even remember going to the funeral.It was explained to me as the will of Jesus, and it's a long story how I went from resenting Him to trusting in Him!But I need to apologise to my mother, for I've spent so many years blocking her out of my mind and heart. I miss her so much!It's just easyer not to think of her at all...Perdonami, Mamma, ti voglio bene!
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reader, Annalisa +, writes (20 April 2008):
Annalisa is verified as being by the original poster of the question Dear all, thank you so much for your comments. I was crying as I wrote that post, so I feared it might come out even stranger than it sounds... I also feared I would be judged, not believed...
Thank you for your support!
Unfortunately, that is my last memory of my mum, I was only 4! I only saw my sister in the incubator she was put in, once. They are both berried in Italy, I live in England and the graves were moved years ago. Noone seems to know where. An uncle was just able to say it's a communal grave they move bodies to after so many years, unless the family is rich enough to have a plot.
Anyway, I believe their spirit is elsewhere and I hope that living my life well and in prayer, I may join them in Heaven, when I too die.
Gosh, this sounds morbid! I'm usually of a more cheerful disposition, so I'm sorry, guys!
Thanks again! Love to all!
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reader, miss annie +, writes (19 April 2008):
you should nevr forget all the good times you had with your mama she will be looking at you from up above hoping you are missing her but at the same time you are making friends and your little sister must mean the world to you and now u have lost her to well nowone is stopping u from goin to c them now and again they will appriciate that xx
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reader, Ask oldersister  +, writes (19 April 2008):
 Thank you for sharing this, Annalisa!
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reader, LJ001 +, writes (18 April 2008):
 That's absolutely beautiful Annalisa. As 'daniellexxxx' says, a lot of people would have loved to have had such an.. an experience, for want of a better word. Nothing can sum up such a thing - more than a dream, but less than reality. But whatever the word would be for it, that's really touched me. Thank you for sharing.
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reader, daniellexxxx +, writes (18 April 2008):
 AWWWW thats the most sweetest thing i have ever heard. You are a very lucky women to have had a last word with there mum as most people will have killed to have that.
You dont need to apologise to your mum she will know how you feel and will always be looking over you wishing you a very happyness. You have being touched and that makes you a very special person.
Wish you good luck. x
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