A
female
age
41-50,
*oumademe
writes:Ok. So, I feel like a crazy freak. I have always had jealousy issues in every relationship I have ever had. I also get very angry very fast over nothing. Being controling is also another issue of mine. I've looked up ways to deal with this online but nothing seems to work when my mind switching into that mode. Recently my boyfrined broke up with me. I am so in love with him I feel like dying. He has broke up with me several times because of these issues I have. This time it is over for good. I told him that I was going to kill myself, and even texted him that I did, I contacted his family and pretended I was my mom asking where I was, said I was missing. He changed his number which I got by tricking him. I feel like a horrible person. I can't live like this anymore I keep ruinning everything. I love him so much. I am scared that he won't come back to me this time. I know he won't actually. His number is changed again. I feel trapped by my own actions. I can't believe I did this. I hate myself. Why can I not control the way I respond to things? How come I know it's wrong to get mad over something but still react with anger? Am I really nuts? I need help. If he does come back to me this will happen again. I never can seem to control myself. Please let me know your advice on this.
View related questions:
broke up, jealous, text, trapped Reply to this Question
Share |
Fancy yourself as an agony aunt? Add your answer to this question! A
female
reader, youmademe +, writes (19 July 2010):
youmademe is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThings are doing ok I guess. I'm tring to get over the fact that he doesn't want me anymore. I do have his number now, but only as friends. He calls sometimes, but as soon as I say anything about "us" he changes the subject or gets off the phone. I've given up at this point. There isn't anything I can do besides move on. As far as me, I'm still the same controling angry person. I haven't gotten help because I don't have a job. I'm in the process of finding one. I'm tring to deal with my own issues instead of worring about men so much. I'll be the same way in the next realationship, so I just plan on being alone for the rest of my life. I don't think anything could help me anyways. I've read things online, seems like I have gotten this from my lame family. Mom was a drunk and didn't have a dad. Probably never learned how to deal with emotions or how to have a real realtionship with someone. I look at other girls and see how normal they are. Just wish I could have been that way. I need to find another way to be happy. I need to forget about having kids or getting married. Anyways, this site didn't help at all.
A
female
reader, youmademe +, writes (4 July 2010):
youmademe is verified as being by the original poster of the questionYeah, I know that. I don't have the money for that or I would have already done it.
...............................
|
