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writes:I have an addictive personality which means i can get addicted to anything as silly as penguin biscuits and i get addicted very easily too. Ive done well to stay away from drugs so far in my life but for my current bf they're quite a major part of his life. Ok, so hes not addicted and he definitely doesnt depend on them, but insists on buying them whenever he has the money. Its only cannabis but i can feel myself slowly becoming addicted too it. These past few days i've smoked alot of it and now im waking up really wishing i had a joint. I always promised myself id never get into drugs because my stepdad smoked cannabis for years and it made him schizophrenic, all of which he took out on me physically and emotionally. But i know that i am starting to love the feeling of being stoned, i hated it at first and it made me wanna vomit, but im seriously starting to love it. I dont know what to do! I dont wanna become hooked on it!
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reader, Ask oldersister  + ♥, writes (4 June 2009):
 Anastasia is exactly right, you have received help but you are not wanting to do anything about it. Instead, you are telling stories of your drug use and making jokes. It comes across like you aren't taking the whole thing very seriously and more like you want to just chat about getting high. You aren't at all participating in any of the solutions that have been suggested either.
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reader, Anastasia  +, writes (4 June 2009):
 Honey, you have asked for help and the overwhelming response is get professional help because you yourself admitted to having a problem of an addictive personality....so I am not too sure what else you want us to tell you besides be careful of the drugs.
What you want to do with that advice is entirely up to you.
Good Luck
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 June 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionYeah this is all a big joke to me thats why i came and asked for help.
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reader, Legioness +, writes (3 June 2009):
 So you want to keep on smoking puff? Good luck to you then cos you're going to need it. Let me tell you a story, I don't really have an addictive personality, I started smoking when I was 12, started getting wrecked on weed when I was 13, at 15 was hanging around with all the stoners who were considerably older than me, one night I tried amphetamine with them, fell in love with it, still smoking weed also, and got addicted to speed, I never really slept, and barley ate, dropped out of school and never done my gcse's (i'm doing them now though) also got hooked on ecstasy and all from just hanging around with the wrong people. All i'm trying to say here is watch yourself, ok? Green might seem harmless now but if you get pulled into the hard stuff chances are you'll ruin your life, just like me, and about a million other people in the world.
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reader, eyeswideopen +, writes (2 June 2009):
 I'm with the Sister, I don't think you are the slightest bit interested in actual help, you think this whole thing is funny. How sad.
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reader, Ask oldersister + ♥, writes (2 June 2009):
So you just came on here to tell everyone you love cannabis? It doesn't seem you want any help. It made you vomit when you did it and so you kept at it until now you can handle it and then claim you love it. If you really want help, then take the suggestions on here and quit doing it.
There are many people on here that have lost people they love to drug addiction and I just don't find this amusing. You are attempting to become addicted to drugs in any way you can, seeking out that behavior, and then acting like it's beyond your control and I'm sorry, you've smoked it a few times, and you can quit now if you really wanted to.
I was a teen once and I tried cigarettes (which are highly addictive) and I didn't like them but I kept smoking because all my friends smoked and all the movie stars smoked. I "wanted" to be a smoker and I think you "want" to become addicted to something and eventually you will find something that ends up taking over your life like meth or coke if you insist on pursuing this sort of thing.
My mother is an alcoholic and has been hospitalized, they say her brain is like that of an 80 yr old from all the damage- she was addicted the first time she tasted it. For that reason, both my sister and I stay away from alcohol.
If you say you have a personality that's addictive, then you have a responsibility to yourself and the people that love you to not try to place yourself in positions and repeat behavior in order to become addicted to something. It would be like if I started making myself consume large amounts of alcohol until I got physically addicted to it so I could relate to my mother or other alcoholics, why would I make that choice? Well, either because I needed attention or because I felt problems made me special or something. That's what you should look at and seek help for. Whatever inadequacies you feel you have as a person that's driving these kinds of what i call attention seeking behavior.
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reader, anonymous, writes (2 June 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionOr fear and loathing in las vegas lol
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reader, eyeswideopen +, writes (2 June 2009):
You need to rent the movie "Days of Wine and Roses". It may motivate you to get yourself under control.
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reader, Anastasia +, writes (2 June 2009):
Then Sweetie, you need to get some professional help. It is the only think that can stop you from perhaps getting into a bad situation later on in life.
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reader, anonymous, writes (2 June 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI haven't forced myself to love it, a joint has been passed around friends on many occasions, and ive grown to love it!
I wake up now and even smoke the remainders of last nights if its all thats left, and it might only be a couple of drags but then i feel as though i have my fix. Cannabis might not be addictive, neither are biscuits, but they are to someone with an addictive personality! If i find something i like, no matter how stupid, i HAVE to do it.
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reader, Anastasia +, writes (1 June 2009):
Hey,
Correct me if I am wrong here....you have an addictive personality and have admitted that it even comes up for penguin cookies....and you are associating yourself with drug users? And you have experienced what a high feeling feels like?
Tell me again why you are doing this to yourself? I know this is going to sound really harsh, but get rid of the boyfriend, let someone know he is into recreational drugs and get yourself some professional help for your addiction disorder...trust me...you will benefit from the help. If it only takes cookies to set you up.....it is best we deal with this while it is just cookies.
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reader, anonymous, writes (1 June 2009): Cannabis isn't really addictive but it can be a crutch and it's bad for you and your boyfriend isn't the greatest influence. Right now you have a choice in how you want your life to be and I wouldn't make a choice of being with a druggy boyfriend and making drugs a part of your lifestyle. you should be thinking of going to college and having goals instead of your goal being to force yourself to like drugs. That's crazy. Knowing your stepdads history and what drugs did to him should scare you enough from going down that path. If you were physically abused by him as a child then you probably have some inner demons to work through and may not recognize what a healthy lifestyle is or what good relationships are. counseling can help you work through some of that before you mess up your life. if your boyfriend buys lots of drugs you could be arrested and then have a felony record. You sound codependent and this is common for kids that grow up in households were there is drugs and abuse. Just like your mom, you are addicted to addicts which is called codependency. look it up and I think it will describe you. its easy to say just don't do it but a codependent person will do anything for the person they are with and pick abusers and druggies.
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reader, satindesire +, writes (1 June 2009):
 You're choosing to do these things of your own free will. You have self control and the ability to make your own choices.
So make the right ones and stop making excuses.
I am a recovering addict and NO ONE should feel sorry for ANY addict. We chose to do these things to ourselves and keep choosing until we got hooked. And each and every time we could have said no.
This is a simple equation. Choose not to smoke pot ever again. And then don't do it. It -REALLY IS THAT EASY-.
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reader, Legioness +, writes (1 June 2009):
Willpower my dear, if you don't want to get addicted then don't smoke it, even if now you're waking up wanting a spliff just tell yourself that you don't want it. Also talk to your boyfriend about this, how you don't want to smoke it and possibly become addicted and get him to maybe not smoke it around you (tough business lol) or just get him to not offer you any of the spliff. Don't feel pressured into smoking it :)
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reader, Ask oldersister + ♥, writes (1 June 2009):
Let's see- you have an addictive personality (based on the penguin biscuit experience) so you team up with an addict because that's your "crowd"? But, he's not an addict even though drugs are a major part of his life and he spends whatever money he can on them. It's true that pot's not really considered physically addictive but nonetheless, you are with a guy that is choosing to self destruct.
So..not only did you NOT enjoy getting stoned when you tried it, you forced yourself to keep doing it until you loved it. Hmmm...what's your goal here?
C'mon now, do you really want help?
The media and movies glamourize addiction and I guess it's the "cool" thing to have rehab under your belt of teen experiences. I've never met a person that's gone to rehab over marijuana but I've known many people that have smoked it in excess and pretty much become losers over the years.
I don't think addiction is your problem, I think it's you not feeling special enough because of whatever attention you lacked in your childhood. You also had a father with some serious mental health issues. That's pretty significant and I hope you seek some sort of help for that.
You haven't been smoking cannibis long enough to be an addict or to have formed a deep psychological addiction to it so it's very easy for you to quit if you don't want to become addicted.
Like Uncle Phil said, hopefully you'll choose not to hit the self destruct button.
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reader, anonymous, writes (31 May 2009): Then stop using it. You already know what will happen if you do. Your bf should be happy you tolerate HIS illegal drug use--there is no reason whatsoever for you to be using it with him. Good luck.
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reader, Uncle Phil + ♥, writes (31 May 2009):
 If you don't want to get hooked on it, don't smoke it! You may just as well press the self-destruct button if you do. You know the consequences so why risk it?
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