I want my ex back,what can i do??

I love my boyfriend(now my ex :( sadly)very much and i really can't live without him, he said that we aren't right for each other, and he listens to other people too much, because we both work in the same company and people in there think alot of him but they don't like me for some reason,i think just because we were going out.i really don't know but he also said that he is stressed with uni work and dont have time and we always argue and that i dont get on with his friends and he dont get on with mine,but he does and i get on with his,but i dont understand why he doesnt want to be with me and i know chasing him and trying to get him back makes things worse but i cant see a future without him i just want him back and i cant stop crying,he is my everything and all i do is sit and dwell on it because he said he loves me and still cares for me and every time he sees me he wants to kiss me, i dont actually think he knows what he wants because we split up on the thursday then he wanted me bak on the sat then he split up with me again on thursday and thats it over,but i want him to come back and people say you will get back together honestly just let him do the running but i dont think he will,but its easy saying ill have to get over him but i just cant it is far too hard for me,all i want to do is kiss him and i will hate to see him with anyone else.what should i do? i need him! and nobody else will ever have my heart! i want him and hes the one ! :(

Posted on 17 December 2007 @ 14:0 (London time) - permalink
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After two marriages and a handful of pretty intensely commited relationships I have always been the half that maintained the upper hand and could at any time have walked away from any of them. Matbe not unscathed but if love is war I would be the victor. Except for my second wife. In Texas we say the sun don't shine on the same dogs ass every day. I guess that means the day your ass hangs out to dry in the cold north wind is coming so don't get too cocky there old boy. And my day is here. Right now. As I type this I am not watching the super bowl well cuz its too late but wasn't watching when it was on because I am so pissed frustrated and totally bowled over by my relationship with my now ex wife that I could pull my what precious hair that remains on my head out just too burn it to smell her house all up. Was our house but I have now relinquished rights to equity, shelter, or even tending my cherished clematis garden for all times now and forever. I love this woman as much as ever. We still are in daily contact and are still sexually active. Surprisingly more and better than when we were married. Go figure. But she can and will turn sufficiently dispassionate at the drop of a hat and send me out like the space shuttle. I don't like it. She knows what she does and knows when she is doing it. But when I complain, she acts clueless about what pisses me off and that just cranks me up to a level that was unheard of even by me not so long ago. If I e-mail her a heart felt letter addressing how I feel about getting short sold she replies in clipped and canned sound bites. If I pour my heart out to her she cops this poor ex husband can't move on and get a life. I enbellish somewhat to make a point but the sublety is worse. Small body language incongruity. Today we were IMing back and forth back and forth and the communication was reaching fevered pitch and at the time of coming to a head. When the gist of all was hashed and parsed and it was time to call in and she must answer my specific issues with specific answers. No wiggle room. Let me keep my dignity or get ready to not have me to kick around anymore, then nothing. Hello!!!! Is this thing on? Hellooooooo!!!!. I sat there in silence. Metaphorically speaking I sat in silence. I waited and waited. Threw out a when you finish rearranging your sock drawer and can hold up your end of this conversation IM me or call on the phone until then I will wait in smoldering indignation. Hello Hello!!!!!!! I went to the house and no one was there. I followed a hunch and drove by some religous friends she hangs with mainly because their daughter and Ruth;s are friends. There was her car. I went and called her cell. Straight to voice mail. I went a to the house and knocked hiding my fury as well as I could. I need to speak to Ruth. Ok she will be right out. This wasn't and isn't the case but It's plausible that they would try to set her up with one of their Bible thumping brethren. If he dates her he going to need all the bibles he can find. And I would finally find a person who is so unwittingly waliking into hell or a place much like it that I pity him and would like to pray for his survival against the forces he is unwittingly walking into. Long story short help this woman out. She and I need all the help we can get.

Posted on 4 February 2008 @ 5:52 (London time) - permalink
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